Only now do I ask myself an existent question, "why have I not valued and questioned my existence before?”.
Maybe subconscious fear knowing that my existence is finite and it is only now I attempt to pathetically postulate, question and justify my own existence.
Rest in peace my beloved family and friends.
“We see ourselves is the foundation for our values, our choices, our relationships with each other, and our relationship with the rest of nature.” [http://www.humansandnature.org/what-does-it-mean-to-be-human]
We see ourselves in our emotions, someassumptions of ourselves appear logically valid and rational on close analysis subconscious emotional stimuli will affect our values, our choices, our relationships with each other, and our relationship with the rest of nature.